Molly on the Menu

The world has been weird lately. We’ve all felt it. It feels like the world is performing a balancing act, and the suspense is killing me. With the pandemic changing the way we function as a society, many people have had to adapt to new ways of living and operating, not only as part of a whole, but as individuals too. 

This is my journey towards throwing my world off balance and letting it fall from the tightrope, tumbling down to the ground around me. I made the decision in October of 2021 to move out of my hometown for the first time and study abroad in Barcelona, Spain. 

I have been blessed with opportunities of travel and experience, but never have I been able to live in and fully immerse myself in another country and its culture. Withdrawing from your comfort zone is a painful process, but with that comes growth and change.

When the world is crumbling around you, crumble with it. 

That is why I feel an urge to leave in the middle of such chaos. Not to flee, but to embrace and dive deeper into the chaos. 

I want to feel the uncomfortability of knowing nothing and learning everything over again. It is a scary and intimidating process, but one that creates a deep sense of identity, nonetheless. 

Preparing to leave the town I have always called home and the people I have always held close is an intimidating obstacle that I am learning to navigate day by day. 

Everyone leaves the nest at some point, whether that be moving out of your parents’ house or moving across the world, but it is a point of growth. It is a checkpoint in the continuous game of life. A checkpoint reassuring you that you are purposefully flowing through a world that craves stagnation. 

Stagnation is a snowball effect. It allows you to become comfortable with the absence of growth and change. That absence manifests into repetitive cycles of the same experiences and same reactions to those experiences. That is not what our purpose is. Our purpose is to bloom and transform and expand. 

I am accepting the end of a chapter. I am embracing the death of the version of myself that I have grown so familiar with. I am welcoming a new Molly Phegley into this world. I want to become acquainted with the deepest parts of myself. I want to befriend my shadows. I want to set free my inner child that is so eagerly waiting to skip and jump through a whole new world of possibilities. 

Barcelona is a beautiful place from what I have heard, but the location is not my goal. Expansion of self is my goal. 

The purpose of my writing is to expose my raw journey of submerging into discomfort and allowing myself to reemerge with vigor. 

Please follow me as I maneuver my way through the peaks and valleys of this transformative experience. 

“Dive into it and don’t let fear control you… always do your best and know the universe will provide in the way it needs to”

– My dear friend, Juniper